Not Wanted

Not Wanted

© Karrie Kirchner 2020

written and recorded 7/12/20

Bibliography

• Greeting card - birds

• Vintage knitting magazine

I cut the girl out in the shape of an egg.  I dissected the egg.  I then strategically origami folded the bottom of the egg so that the top would look like it was parting and opening, revealing what was inside.

The bird chirps, “not wanted.”  

I didn’t want to be a teenage mom.  I didn’t want to struggle.  I didn’t want the tether of a child.  I didn’t want to be held back from the life I envisioned for myself.  

I realize I have lived through this life.  

I feel like I went against Nature.  The Miracle of Life, I held in my body and my hands.  Holding the idea of having a baby at 18 would have exhausted my life energy.  It meant unfreedom.  By choosing, I chose.  

“Not for you.”

Not for me.

I lean back to see what more is in this image.  

I notice she is content.  She is knitting the life she wants.  The life she wants is in her womb - and it is continually birthed through her work in the world.  

Knitting in this image - metaphorically manifesting the life I desire to create.