El Critico (revisited)

8.2.20

©️ Karrie Kirchner

El Critico, self doubt, feeling fake, inauthentic,

Freedom essential

Choice

Melding, shifting

When negative self talk creps in - because I can get along with everyone - I wonder if I am “fake” or 2 sided. Doubt - feeling fake was me unsure of my own boundaries. The muckiness of my own mess made it hard to discern. If standing up for myself and the other person’s reaction. What I would “take in” emotions from others.  Not to take it personally. Doing the boundary work. I have done a lot of soul searching. To come to my own clarity. The roots and inceptions of my motivations, drives, passion and life’s mission.  I am a natural born, incurably optimistic spiritual diplomatic peace maker seeker of inner and outer peace and freedom for all beings.

Root - as an only child my peer counterbalance in sibling form = absent - rarity to be an only.  In my case, I am extremely adept at being alone and enjoying solitude.  I have always been able to morph in conversations to make people feel at ease.  

Shift from people pleaser [link blog]

To stand in my own authenticity.